I have been a Christian all my life. I was raised in a Christian home with parents that were not only Christians but were very disciplined in the practice of their faith. As a child, my families’ social schedule was scheduled around the on goings of the churches’ activities. This type of child rearing has both blessings and curses for a sensitive person.
Along the way during my growth and faith development I adopted a warped view of God. Although I loved Him deeply, and I knew He knew who I was, I wasn’t sure if He really loved me and was concerned with my well being. I have since learned that this mentality is called orphaned mentality. Orphaned mentality toward God the Father is the misconstrued notion that God loves you parallel with how your human father loves you. Although my father loved my dearly and would have done anything for me, he was often unable to verbalize or physically show his love in such a way my tender heart could receive it. This thinking brings on a mindset that you aren’t quite as important to God as His other children.
I have had a calling to go into ministry since I was 26, but with the busyness of life and children coupled with my intense fear of displeasing, or worse, embarrassing God, I made excuses, and pursued other ventures. I had a family, taught school, started a successful business with my husband yet none of this was my calling, and I knew it.
It wasn’t until I was 48, and diagnosed with cancer that I understood my calling. With the cancer diagnoses instead of retreating from God because He had once again forgotten “this child”, He pulled me so close that a person would literally see God when looking at me. One night, around 3 am I was once again awoken with cancer on my mind. I went into my usual place and prayed. This time it was different. This time I wasn’t the only one thinking and talking. I opened my bible, and all the words on the page fell away from my sight except two scriptures. I was only able to read these words. “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from you suffering” Mark 5: 26, and “Don’t be afraid; just believe” Mark 5:36. For the first time I understood how much He loved me. I felt his touch, warmth, hope, but most of all I felt his Healing Power through his son Jesus Christ.
I have set out on a journey to bring the message of EFFECTIVE praying through the Holy Spirit into the community to HEAL everyone physically, mentally, emotionally, and financially. The Lord wants us all well and whole. This is His Will!